Augh.
I don't want to have to deal with everyone's little attitudes that have been going around lately. I haven't exactly been Miss Peachy lately, but I'm not thrusting my issues on you by yelling at you for trying to help me, delaying a study date for TWO HOURS for no reason and NOT TELLING ME ABOUT IT, acting jealous because hey, Jeni has a crush for the first time since she was thirteen years old, etc etc.
>.<
Just leave me alone for a little while, please. I'm tired of all the whiney, angry crap that people are throwing at each other and myself, and I'm not going to put up with it for much longer. Take a breath and chill, people. Sometimes life sucks. We all know it, so stop taking it out on me.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
so, I did this back in 2007, and I decided to do it again, just to see how much has changed.
1. What's a commonly used nickname people call you by? Jeni
2. What's your favourite color? Silver
3. What's your favourite food? Mashed Potatoes.
5. What's your favorite animal? Lion.
6. Biggest pet peeve? Spelling errors in books.
7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? Anywhere and everywhere,
8. Do you cry easily? No.
9. Do you generally have a good, loving family? Yes.
10. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No.
11. Do you have many phobias? Just the one-needles.
12. Favourite genre of music? Anything that sounds good.
13. Are you a trendsetter, a trend follower, or do you dress originally? Originally, I suppose.
14. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? Yes.
15. Do you like school? Right now, I'm all right with it.
16. Are you known to spend your money quickly? No.
17. What time is it right now? 11:43 pm
18. Are you on the computer a lot? Not anymore.
19. Pet hermit crabs- a good thing or a bad thing? If that's what you like,
20. Leftie or Righty? Right handed when I write, everything else I do with my left.
1. Do you have any scars/stretch marks, etc? What kind of question is this? Everyone has scars.
22. Do you have dull elbows or pointy elbows? Pointy.
23. Timmies or Starbucks? Timmies every time.
24. Do you have any sleeping problems? Itsometimes I have really big issues falling asleep and staying asleep. Actually, this is pretty frequent.
25. Are you a shy person? I can be.
26. Are you a gift-giver? I love giving gifts. (:
27. Warm or cold? Cold.
28. Do you like meeting new people? I'm better than I was, but I don't really like to do it, still.
My conclusion?
I'm a much happier person now than I was in 2007. I've had a lot of rough patches to work through, but I'm so, so much better off now than I was even a year ago.
1. What's a commonly used nickname people call you by? Jeni
2. What's your favourite color? Silver
3. What's your favourite food? Mashed Potatoes.
5. What's your favorite animal? Lion.
6. Biggest pet peeve? Spelling errors in books.
7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? Anywhere and everywhere,
8. Do you cry easily? No.
9. Do you generally have a good, loving family? Yes.
10. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No.
11. Do you have many phobias? Just the one-needles.
12. Favourite genre of music? Anything that sounds good.
13. Are you a trendsetter, a trend follower, or do you dress originally? Originally, I suppose.
14. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? Yes.
15. Do you like school? Right now, I'm all right with it.
16. Are you known to spend your money quickly? No.
17. What time is it right now? 11:43 pm
18. Are you on the computer a lot? Not anymore.
19. Pet hermit crabs- a good thing or a bad thing? If that's what you like,
20. Leftie or Righty? Right handed when I write, everything else I do with my left.
1. Do you have any scars/stretch marks, etc? What kind of question is this? Everyone has scars.
22. Do you have dull elbows or pointy elbows? Pointy.
23. Timmies or Starbucks? Timmies every time.
24. Do you have any sleeping problems? Itsometimes I have really big issues falling asleep and staying asleep. Actually, this is pretty frequent.
25. Are you a shy person? I can be.
26. Are you a gift-giver? I love giving gifts. (:
27. Warm or cold? Cold.
28. Do you like meeting new people? I'm better than I was, but I don't really like to do it, still.
My conclusion?
I'm a much happier person now than I was in 2007. I've had a lot of rough patches to work through, but I'm so, so much better off now than I was even a year ago.
/rant
It's been two years, and I thought I forgave her a while ago.
But now I know there will always be a little part of me who hates her. All it takes is a bit of memory to trigger it, and I realize that while I never want to be her friend again, I want to know what goes on in her life.
I miss her.
And this is the only place I can admit to that. It's what she doesn't know I have, this blog. And I don't want to tell anyone else.
I hate her, but I miss her. So much. But it will never be like it was...
Because she betrayed us, and for that, I forgive her, but I still hate her.
Because 13 years of friendship should have meant more to her than that. She shouldn't have dumped us and jumped on the pieces. She should have grown up and stopped being such a child. Not everything is an insult to you, you know.
You just thought it was.
But now I know there will always be a little part of me who hates her. All it takes is a bit of memory to trigger it, and I realize that while I never want to be her friend again, I want to know what goes on in her life.
I miss her.
And this is the only place I can admit to that. It's what she doesn't know I have, this blog. And I don't want to tell anyone else.
I hate her, but I miss her. So much. But it will never be like it was...
Because she betrayed us, and for that, I forgive her, but I still hate her.
Because 13 years of friendship should have meant more to her than that. She shouldn't have dumped us and jumped on the pieces. She should have grown up and stopped being such a child. Not everything is an insult to you, you know.
You just thought it was.
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